What made you stop being an addict?

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

I did it in my administrator's office.

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I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Why do I sweat a great deal while exercising the same on some days and not so much on others?

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

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There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

And I can also talk to them now.

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I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

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And I DID IT EVERYDAY

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Just keep trying

My parents force me (15yo atheist) to go to church, and there’s this thing called Small Sundays where we discuss the Bible in groups, there are questions asked about the Bible. What am I supposed to do when they ask?

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

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I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

Now how do you quit your addiction?

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

Why is going on a date today so much different than it was when I was young?

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

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So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

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I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

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Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

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I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

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This was February 2019.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

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I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

Read that again ☝️

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it